Moments:

I have moments when I think about my life, what I've been through the people who have helped me get through these things, the memories that no longer exist the pain I've survived and surgeries I have gone through, when I have these moments I tell myself it's ok to feel these things and to think about them, but then seconds later I tell myself to get over it and I get frustrated that I'm thinking about any of it, that I just need to get over it.

Then I think more and say I am over it but just because these thoughts and memories are still tender and still make me cry sometimes doesn't define that I am not over it, all it means is I am human, these memories are real they happened and I'm not going to make them feel like they never did.

More moments and memories are being formed everyday of my life and forever I will remember these moments because they are a part of me, of who I use to be, who was in my life, who is in my life, of who I am, who I'm going to be, and whose going to be in my life, and who always has is and will be in my life.

Don't take any of these moments for granted, because we only live once, and there is no need or time for regret we live ... And we learn.

A song list:

Music is one of the most important things in my life.  For this post I want to share the songs I have on repeat this week:

Everything To You - Bethel Live

Taylor Swift & Gary Lightbody - The Last Time 

Ed Sheeran - Give Me Love 

One Republic - Feel Again 

Corinne Bailey Rae - Till It Happens To You 

James Morrison - One Life

Take me back:

A world:

Why is there this longing for love? What is it about love that makes us listen to a song differently, look outside differently, think differently... What is it? To want to be in love? That there is this haunting longing for everything about love... The good parts, the rough parts... We want it all ... And why?

I catch myself in this other world, a world full of thoughts, music, words, images, feelings and passion and they all revolve around love... I get this look on my face of seriousness and some sadness, then I catch myself laughing to myself with a smile on my face.. This world I'm often in is my world and its full of love and pain... But I want all of it.

I look at grass differently and the sky while I'm in this world and my mind floods with thoughts and my heart with a bittersweet taste.

I've spent a lot of my life on a bus, on my bike and with my good old two feet and I guess through all this time alone left with my music and thoughts I've become ... me.

Rodney Smith:

www.rodneysmith.com

www.rodneysmith.com/blog/ 

This is one of my favorite photographers. I discovered him years ago while searching through photos on google, ever since... I'm hooked.

His photography is incredibly unique, and breath taking. Many think his work is weird and just kind of skip to the next picture, but me... if I could own a billion of his prints and post them all over my house.. I would and every time I would stop and stare at it.

Rodney Smith blogs every week, and I just recently discovered this. I'm really looking forward to reading his blogs every Monday :)

I could post a million of his photos because his work is honestly amazing. The one's I am posting aren't particular favorites because I could choose his entire collection for my favorite.

Bethel Live:

Today an amazing new CD was released. All in favor of amazing worship music say I! ... If you could hear me.. I'm saying I.

I've spent in the past two summers about a month and half over in little town Redding, California. The home of Bethel Church.. the home of life changing events in my life and some of my closest friends.

Today they released their 3rd Live CD and all I can say is... 14-28 days of shipping.. isn't fair, I want it now!!! So many people just tell me to get it on iTunes and this and that, but... no I'm sorry hard copy only for this girl over here. I am going to wait the 14-28 days to hold this CD/DVD in my hand because.... its what I do.

You can get or even to preview the CD at: Bethel Music - click for direct link.

Also... I suggest watching these two videos, the second one in particular.

It's October:

October ... the month holds a lot in my life. There's not much more to say, but today is a day of feeling. We've got to give ourselves these days to feel emotions to simply take the day to remember. Some have different judgments on how I believe we need days to feel, obviously not often, but it's been since July that I haven't just taken a day or two to feel.. and today marks October 1st... and today I'm feeling. . .

I will never forget you. . .

Introduction to amazing: 

Birdy - I'll Never Forget You